tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-58019012011-04-21T12:09:56.657-07:00A girl no longer broken heartedSurfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.comBlogger391100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1107466743912450332005-02-03T13:25:00.000-08:002005-02-03T13:39:03.913-08:00

So i haven't been on in ages. Sorry... Alot has happened. I met a really great guy but then i fucked up and i pushed him away. Do i reget it? HELL YA!!! but i guess i learn for m my mistakes. I wish i had the guts to call his and apoligize. I guess i would if i knew for sure he would accept. ( Rogelio Vega) I'm sorry. But i guess i'm too much of a chicken. Let's see Since then i've become an

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1092179438005318402004-08-10T16:03:00.000-07:002004-08-10T16:10:38.006-07:00

So it's all hot and gross. Ummm i'm visiting my father in a couple of weeks. I'm kinda scared of that. I don't think i'm ready to talk to Milton. buit i have to. And i know if I don't do it soon it's just gonna get harder to talk to him. But whatever. I was talking to my friend the other day at work and freekin Lorena who was 2 aisles down said out loud ,"Ruby, can you stop flirting?" I was so

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1089945697201499182004-07-15T19:31:00.000-07:002004-07-15T19:41:37.200-07:00

It has been so freakin hot fot the past few days. I hate it. I've been gone for like a month, but  nothing has happened. Well i mean alot of drama surrounding my sister. I wanna really get out of this house. I might finally get my tatoo in 2 months. So i might have to get out of my house. LOL!!! ummm well i've been busy and tired with work and school. it's been dollar week at work so it's super

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1086845931015598252004-06-09T22:29:00.000-07:002004-06-09T22:38:51.016-07:00

So i think this will be the last blog i'll be writing in a while ( a little one i hope) I have somethings to work out conserning my father, my ex, the guy i'm "seeing", and friends. I've slowly been pulling away from all theses thinds or a little from all theses things. I wanna work on being friends with my ex but i know a few of my friends will look down on this. So i've been pulling away from

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1086391692114721582004-06-04T16:27:00.000-07:002004-06-04T16:28:12.113-07:00

Dude alot of ppl must be fealing guilty. or at least alot of my friends do cuz 2 ppl emailed me and one called me and 2 others bloged there responce to my blog from a couple of days ago about a stupid chick who's been ratting me out to my sister. They all swear i was talking about them.LOL it's kinda funny but it kinda sucks at the same time. It's funny cuz alot of people think i'm talking about

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Blah Well i'm having a pretty blah day today. I have to walk to work in a little while. I don't wanna go i'm tired of working at Target. I wish i never worked there. But if i didn't i wouldn't have met alot of my friends like Eric and Lauura (there's alot more) But yeah. if i wasn't working there i probably would have gone to see my father already. it's been just about 6 months. Well i was up

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1086323532789270142004-06-03T21:31:00.000-07:002004-06-03T21:32:12.790-07:00

FIRSTS: 1.First best friend: Marisol Tapia 2.First car: 98 jeep grand cherokee 3.First real kiss: Milton 4.First break-up: Miton 5.First screen name: Angelb2 6.First self-purchased album: (don't laugh)Hanson :Middle of nowhere 7.First funeral: Great grand mother 8.First pets:Snuggles and cuddles cats 9.First piercing/tattoos:my ear 10.First credit card: Student Visa (there evil) 12.First

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You know i consider myself to be a person who gives everyone a chance. I didn't used to be this way. i used to cut people who i once considered good friends out of my life as often as i change my clothes. And it didn't matter. You coud give me a weird look or if i got a bad first impresion of you i wouldn't even give you a second glance let alone be your friend. But when i finaly saw what i was

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1085536299974909462004-05-25T18:31:00.000-07:002004-05-25T18:51:39.973-07:00

So this morning i got a wake up call from Milton , not surprisingly with a text, he wanted to know what i was doing. Me being me said, Why are you bored?, to which he said , funny, to which i said , ya i know, that's why my friends love me, and he just sent an, lol. So yeah, The thing is though that's how one of our first conversations started before we got together. So it was like dejavu (is

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1084795917309425492004-05-17T05:09:00.000-07:002004-05-17T05:11:57.310-07:00

So the other night i met this cool guy on the internet. And we got along ok. At least i thought we did. I mean we talked for a really long time. But today i just got done talking with him and he no longer wants to talk to me. God that is so weird. I wonder what happened. I don't like this feeling. I thought he was a great guy. maybe i was wrong. I dunno but i'm totaly confused. Much love...

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1084169157051548242004-05-09T22:54:00.000-07:002004-05-09T23:05:57.053-07:00

So i have kinda been going on this crazy makin out spree. I have been aon 2 dates in the past 2 weeks with 2 totaly different guys. One was a bit older than me. And the other 2 years older than me. Both guys very cool. I made out with both of them. it was a big difference to my first kiss. (wich i have come to realize sucked) But it's like the more guys i kiss, the more i wanna kiss. I mean i've

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So i realized something. Although i want to let him go i can't. I never really cried over it. I never really morned over my broken heart. I mean ya i've thought about it alot and wrote about it even more but i never really got to release it emotinaly. I mean i cried a little when it happened and even more through the weeks that followed. but i never really let myself finish crying. a few tears

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1081458556001783492004-04-08T14:09:00.000-07:002004-04-08T14:12:01.390-07:00

ok so things are getting weirder. I mean worse in some ways but a little better in other ways. You see i have a thing for someone at work. and he's always in the front lanes of the store while i'm always on the sales floor. So when it comes time to do backup cashire i go up there. esp. when he's there. We talk alot while i'm up there, we flirt, he even asked me if i wanted to transfer up there, i

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1080889346967352202004-04-01T23:02:00.000-08:002004-04-01T23:05:05.793-08:00

So sorry I haven't written in a long time. Been pretty busy. Had a HUGE fight with Robert. Well let me just say Robert is no longer my friend. He's a huge big freekin Queen. Drama queen that is. Or maybe both. Hmmmmmm... I haven't decited yet. Well you see one night the A/C at work wasn't working and it was a really hot day. Robert was messing with me and I already was in a bad mood. so i got

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Let him go. I realized that that's what i have to let Milton go. Ok so i was going through my CDs and poped in this burned CD that my best friend made me a while back. And the first song was "What A Girl Wants" by Christina Aguilera And there's this line that says, " If you love someone lets them go and if they comeback that's how you know it's for keeps it's for sure..." So here it is i realized

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1077690160095657112004-02-24T22:22:00.000-08:002004-02-24T22:24:41.746-08:00

Virginity. Was is it? I mean I mean I know that to be a virgin is to not have sex. But what is sex? Is it actual intercourse or is it fooling around? Is sex... um... Well lets just call it getting or giving... um... A Lawinske? Is sex letting a guy go down on you? Or is it letting a guy Finger you or letting a girl give you a hand job? You see I've been wondering all this cause the other night I

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So things totaly suck. Had a big fight with Robert. Wasn't talking to him for 3 days. He came up to me with such an attitude one day because he thought i wasn't talking to him. And i was really busy at work that day. I had alot to do. we were waiting on a visit from like the general maneger and things had to be 100% perfect. So i just told him in a kinda mean way that if i wasn't talking to him

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1076174362933214262004-02-07T09:19:00.000-08:002004-02-07T09:21:06.966-08:00

Ok so people have been e-mailing me instead of using the comments. Yes everything that i say happened has happened or is happening. My Ex-boyfriend , Milton, and I were together for a month and a half. He broke up with me over text message.Yes his mother and my father are dating. Yes i did fall in love with him. Yes my heart is broken. and yes i have gone to visit since then. Ok now that, that's

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1075861949902326902004-02-03T18:32:00.000-08:002004-02-03T18:34:10.076-08:00

Ok so I was kinda pissed last time I wrote. But I've gotten over it. But here it is. My ex's entire family knows about us. And what can I say, I had to do it. Not because I wanted to. I mean hey I just wanted to leave it alone and let it die where it layed. But no. My sister had to get involver and told me basically that if I didn't tell my father she would. And I couldn't let it happen like that

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So today sucks already. I woke up early and went for a walk. My ex is acting like we've been nothing but friends all these years and I don't know if I should just play along or actually ask him why. You know. Well I told my father about "us" and all he said was "ok". OK!!! I was so expecting more. I mean I'm his freakin'' baby girl and his step demon violated me. And all he has to say is OK.

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-10753216509010262004-01-28T12:27:00.000-08:002004-01-28T12:29:04.996-08:00

So i'm here at my fathers house in merced. I was supposed to go and tell him what i needed to tell him at the shop but his girlfriend and my cousin were at the shop so i couldn't talk to him. But i did tell him that i was going to need to talk to him later. so what's new. Um lets see. I just cut my hair it went from mid leanth to a bob with layers. That's the best way to describe it. And i dyed

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1074839230220474332004-01-22T22:27:00.000-08:002004-01-22T22:28:38.640-08:00

So I finely got my comments back up and running. Something with the old place there at a new place and everything went yuck. So yeah. Life is good. Can't explain now. But next time I Post I will be at my fathers house in Merced. And I'll be able to fill in the blanks of my story. Much Love...

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So Robert has a girlfriend. That's cool. I'm getting ready to cut and dye my hair I just hope it turns out fine. Um got my travel plans down. And I just gotta call with the details. Nervous as hell. I've been pretty sick lately. It's hard for me to eat. I can't hold nothing down. My mom says that it's just the nerves. Well I talked to his lil bro. The other day. He seems ok. I found out that

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1074450216901613542004-01-18T10:23:00.000-08:002004-01-18T10:27:47.860-08:00

Ok so I've been thinking. Is it ok to be friends with your ex? And if it is will you ever be the same kinda friends again? This is what I've been thinking as my trip to Merced moves closer and closer. I'm so worried and scared what will happen. With us as friends and with my father when I tell him. I've also been loosing a lot of sleep. Why? My mom says it's because I'm worried. I called my

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1074367249236076432004-01-17T11:20:00.000-08:002004-01-17T11:22:12.340-08:00

So here's the new improved personal guide to stalking me. I have a few changes. Check um out and see if you see which ones have changed Your new personal guide to stalking me: Name: Ruby S. Paz 2. Birthday: 11/18/83 3. Piercings: 2 in each ear 4. Tattoos: Not yet. Give me a couple of months and get back to me with this question. 5. Height: 5'3"& 1/2, you know I had to ad the half 6. Shoe size:

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So life has gone on for me. 2 of my poems about him are being published. So I guess I got some thing good out of it. But I finally realized something. I don't love him. I never did. I think it was just lust. Or as my mom said infatuation. I finally stopped thinking about him all the time. I mean I have love for him because we were friends for such a long time, but that's about it. Life has gone

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1073189205282015842004-01-03T20:06:00.000-08:002004-01-03T20:07:55.076-08:00

Ok I got this from Mrs(www.yanowhatimean.com) Blog and thought it was cool so I answered the questions and am posting it here too. She called it Your Personal Guide to Stalking Me. So I'm leaving it at that. Enjoy. Your Personal Guide to Stalking Me Essentials... 1. Name: Ruby S. Paz 2. Birthday: 11/18/83 3. Piercings: 2 in each ear 4. Tattoos: Not yet. Give me a couple of months and get back

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Hey Happy New year. Sorry it's kinda late. I spent New Years Eve with my friend Esther and her boyfriend Kevin and her mom and her mom's boyfriend. It was cool. we laughed about a of stupid things. And Talked a whole bunch about a church group i used to be a part of. I drank a little but not alot. What did i drink? Um i drank Pink lemonade with this stuff called captain somethig. i don't

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Well hope your Christmas was the coolest mine was ok. I guess. I worked christmas eve. Wich was ok i guess. We got out at 8. You know i've been listening to too many people's opinion about this whole ex boyfriend thing and everyone tells me not to call and what ever. So i've listened and i haven't called him. But i called his house on Christmas morning to wish his mom a merry christmas. and she

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Well 2 days before Christmas and i sit here wondering what he is up to. I wonder if he is thinking about me. I wrote a poem about him and us and it's posted on poetry.com. I'll paste it here later. Well work sux. Rumors that i thought were dead have come back to haunt me. I miss my ex really really bad. I went to the mall to day and finished my christmas shopping. Dude it was crazy in ther. I

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1071799635386598592003-12-18T18:07:00.000-08:002003-12-18T18:08:09.326-08:00

Hey well another Thursday and yet another day off. Well today wasn't so bad. I talked to my friend Lorena about "him" and she read the text message and she said that in reality he didn't break up with me but that he just had second thoughts and left it at that. And that by not telling me the truth about why he broke up with me and just leaving me with some stupid excuse that we will never be

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1071639128092830552003-12-16T21:32:00.000-08:002003-12-16T21:32:59.966-08:00

Well ya'll i just added a comment's thingy to my blog so please use it. Much love.

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1071637264529878272003-12-16T21:01:00.000-08:002003-12-16T21:01:56.686-08:00

Well it's been a little over a week and i feel better. but not as good as i would hope. You see i thought i was really good but i talked to my friend Esther and she didn't even say anything big but like we're planning to go see the Lord of the Rings and she said something like " ok but i'm gonna take kevin because i take him every where." kevin is here boyfriend. And i said well it's not like

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1071253433767020042003-12-12T10:23:00.000-08:002003-12-12T10:24:41.186-08:00

Well today is day 4 of life with out "him" I must admit it still does hurt and when I hear certain songs on the radio I still get a little teary eyed. But you know what? Yeah it hurts but it doesn't hurt as much. I told my friend Danielle about my break up yesterday at work because she asked why I wasn't on the phone like always and she got really mad. She wants to come to Merced with me when I

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1071025465987406642003-12-09T19:04:00.000-08:002003-12-09T19:05:11.076-08:00

Well it's been months and months since the last time I posted and I'm sorry. Well I'm still working at target. No more rumors about me and anyone at work. Thank god! I'm no longer in school. Too much pressure for me right now. I've got too much going on with family life and a stupid coward of an ex. ( long story but I will get to it) I've made some great friends and had lots of tuff learning

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1064376631914839672003-09-23T21:10:00.000-07:002003-09-23T21:10:31.930-07:00

You know you can't say anything in target with out it getting around the whole store in 24 hours. I was at work yesterday,because where else would i be on a monday night, and i was wondering around all day because i get so bored in my department. and i was walking around with my friend Robert, who also works there, and we had lunch together and we were supposed to take our last break together but

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1063774160961122362003-09-16T21:19:00.000-07:002003-12-16T21:27:15.966-08:00

well today's my day off. Finally. Well yesterday at work was weird. I saw an old elementry pe coach i usd to have. And he huged me which is kinda kreepy. hugging your teacher. And over the past few days i've had 3 people try to set me up with a friend 2 at work and 1 at school. and i think that one of the guys that has been flirting with me likes me. i dunno but i kinda like him. what can i say.

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1063644258651354092003-09-15T09:44:00.000-07:002003-12-16T21:32:13.340-08:00

Well I know I haven't been on in a couple of days. It's work and school I think there slowly but surly killing me. Well I got stuck in a department I don't really like much (stationary) and I really sucked cause well right now it's mostly clearance. So basically it's pretty much a mess. You all know how when you walk into a store you walk directly to the clearance rack. Well it's like the

Surfangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05377200929945795189noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5801901.post-1063340096659548342003-09-11T20:42:00.000-07:002003-09-11T21:14:56.690-07:00

Today is September 11, 2003 2 years ago I woke up to the most scary thing I have ever seen on TV. But 2 years ago I also decided to pursue my dream of becoming a firefighters. I realized that 2 years ago today many men and women died rescuing people they didn't even know. And I realized that these brave souls died doing a job that they loved. So my thoughts go out to all of there family and

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